And I’m back!
For good this time!
There is entirely too much going on in my life right now and the need to write has been killing me lately. I dropped off the face of the Earth for a while there and I promise I had a good reason!…
No good reason.
The important thing is that I have returned, I am now 6 months on T and there is so much I want to talk about! SO many things have been happening, I may need to break this up into smaller posts. We shall see.
I think I’m going to start with personal life things and leave my HRT changes for their own post entirely.
So since the last time I posted, which I think was maybe 4 months ago? 5? I don’t recall. Either way I have been lucky enough to be pre-occupying my time with a really rad guy that I get the privilege of calling my boyfriend. Now I’m not going to go on and on about relationship stuff that you guys probably don’t want to hear but what I will say is that I’m really happy. He is exactly what I was looking for and I am very fortune to have acquired him.
Enough of that BS though, let’s move on to the rest of the wonderful things that have been happening to me!
I have a living space! I have a brand new apartment and I am so excited to FINALLY be out of my parents place. (My sex life is also happy) It’s small and in a basement, but it’s clean and it’s all mine…and my roomies. He’s an okay guy…
Translation: He’s my main homeslice.
I love my parents, and recently I’ve felt closer to my mom than I ever have before but it’ll be nice to move on my own. I’ll miss our late night talks and bonding over our inability to sleep but I need my space and independence. Having said that, moving is super stressful and I want to slam my head against the wall at times, but it’ll all be worth it in just a few more hours when my move in date hits!
My extended family on my mom’s side has been very supportive as well, both with my move and transition. The amount of love and help they have offered me has been more than I could ever ask for. My Aunt even gave me and my roomie a beautiful picture of my “cousin” to decorate our new home.
Basically my family has made the tail end of 2015 and the beginning of 2016 better than I could have imagined. Getting to keep the people I love by my side has been a gift that I will never take for granted after being so (needlessly) scared of losing them. I’ve been so lucky and I am incredibly aware of that.
Yesterday was the Trans Day of Awareness and getting to be out and proud with the love of those closest to me is a gift. I know some of you out there haven’t been so lucky, and for that I am so sorry. I have had a few people who have been unable to accept my transition so I know how it feels to lose someone. I come out of this on the other side, not counting the people I lost, but cherishing the people who I stayed with me. If you focus on those that leave you, you lose sight of those you still have.
Enough with the mushy feelings! More good stuff!
I’ve been receiving more and more commission work as the months roll by and it’s both scary and exciting. I really feel like I am making some ground with my work and it’s very promising. I am personally attributing some of this towards the Wyvern project I am employed to do. It’s really opened me up to a huge audience, an audience I want to represent. I think that’s really ballin’ and I am so happy it’s played out this way. Now I just need to keep up the momentum, which has been difficult with the move and my regular comic store work hours. Worth it!
So as I sit here chugging an energy drink and preparing to work late into the night, packing and drawing for Wyvern, I find myself over-worked and stressed yet peppy as heck. I am so ready for my move in date and for what the future holds. If it’s bad? Well, let future Toby worry about that. For now I will enjoy the good fortune that has landed before me and take this shit one day at a time.
I’ll probably want to blog about my move before I post about my HRT changes so expect that first, probably on Sunday knowing me.
Well folks, that’s all for now. As usual, stay Tobly awesome.
I know I will